Nov. 16th —
No action – I spent the day reading the Modern Library
edition of Freud – I realize the importance of this work, the possible benefits of psycho-analysis if directed by an expert – But the thought occurs to me – Why do we have so much repression in the Western world – Is it due to the notion of sin? to the centuries of clerical domination? Freud insists that sex – in its broadest aspect of course – is the basic factor, the determining element in our lives – If this is true, – and I must believe it is – then the reason is that for centuries we have not been leading natural lives – we have covered up – we have forced natural impulses into the depths of the subconscious and unconscious from where they manifest themselves in the various types of neuroses and psychoses.
Bertrand Russell realizes this and hence the importance in instinctive happiness and friendship in his characteristics of a happy community. He strikes at the root of the evil. I must say that I like Russell more each time I read him, although I can see the point that one critic makes when he says that Russell gets very angry
because certain things do not exist for him to attack.
All quiet again – These raids seem to last two days then stop – The Japanese claim they annihilated our task force off Eastern Luzon And in Leyte Gulf, Lt. Ito sank a battleship, was jubilant – but did not return.
“Madame Curie” by her daughter Eve has fascinated me – The struggles Marie Curie had to go through to study in Paris, the wonderful work she did with her husband, the simplicity amidst so many honors – And the motto “Good humor is the finest mark of Courage.” – a motto for us here in our hour of trial & suffering.
Raids all day – this is fine – It is interesting to note that we have no deaths on air-raid days – Perhaps they help in the struggle for survival – The air-raid alarm was on from 7:38 to 6:50– 11 hours – we’ll sleep well tonight –
I am reading the Beard’s “Rise of American Civilization.” While I agree with Justice Holmes that the economic interpretation of history can be carried too far, I feel that the Beards make their point 9 times out of ten – It would be interesting to do for the whole world what Meyer did for America in his “Great American Fortunes” (or some such title). Ouvrard, Rothschild, Bardi, Peruzi, Medici, Fugger – They made history just as much as the kings and politicians –
I used to be bitter about great fortunes – à la Nation & New Republic – but now I see that if self-interest & general interest combine (and they can combine) there is no ill effect.
But there are some who have no interest in great wealth but who want to help others – These are the dreamers – They should be secured from exploitation by the first group their & works kept for The nation or the world.
The heaviest raid yet – wave after wave all day – This afternoon 13 torpedo planes flew over the camp at 300 feet headed for the bay – Explosions & fires all over Manila – Although the sun is shining, the City is dark – Smoke in the clouds pouring from the Port Area & the San Nicholas district (warehouses) – Cavite is burning –
Again rumors of landing on Luzon – Morale is away up again –
Nov. 12th – No action – I am too tired to write.
No action –
The Japanese today distributed to the garden workers 1 pkg tobacco, 1 cake soap, 2 boxes matches & 6 bananas per person – The other heavy workers in the camp feel that they have been unjustly overlooked – But I am glad that some people got tobacco – Perhaps our turn will come
later on – I have no sympathy for those who say they would not accept tobacco from the Japanese – They are envious – I will save my stand on principals something worth-while –
The old men continue to drop off like flies – one per day is average – And all the Japanese doctor says is “So sorry, many more will get Beri-beri.”
Bowing is in vogue again – The Japanese tell us we must bow as a sign of thanks for their protection – when I die, I want written on my coffin “Protected to the end” –
Still no action – Morale very low –
Worse than the shortage of food is the shortage of tobacco – Tobacco stills hunger pains – the Japs say there is none, but they brought in 600 pkgs of 250 grams each the other day – this native tobacco is very strong – I’ll bring you some – we are smoking it mixed with dried papaya leaves, dried hibiscus leaves, dried tea leaves – I am not very adept at rolling cigarettes and admire those who seem to do it proficiently –
I just finished Harold Nicholson’s trilogy “Portrait of a Diplomatist”, “Peacemaking”, and “Lord Curzon” The trilogy covers the years from about 1890 to 1924 – A masterly piece of work – Let us hope that Roosevelt does not go to a second Paris and that we do not have another Versailles Treaty – I agree with Nicholson that we should have a trained diplomatic corps, technicians just as lawyers and doctors are technicians – And we should look to them for technical advice but not
for policy making –
I have been in favor of a national university – for the training of young men for administrative positions in the government, the states, and the diplomatic service – we must come to the European system of government administration as a career – Here too the men are technicians.
I would like to see after this war exchange scholarships on a vast scale – Let our young men go to Europe, South America, the Far East & let their young men come to the United States – if we had 50,000 a year, it would only cost $100,000,000, the cost of one day’s war.
We hear Roosevelt was re-elected – Electoral vote 400+ to 100+, popular vote 18 million to 16 million – From the total of the vote I assume that the soldiers took no part in the election – They will have plenty to say, however, when this is over –
We are keeping Dorita and Albert3 in bed except for 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the afternoon – We find that they loose weight more slowly and that they are far calmer than the other children –
Morale is very low again – Poor food, no actions, many deaths – I hope the relief shipment comes –
Many internees, especially the older people, have swollen legs, very marked – This is due partially to beri-beri – But primarily to a protein deficiency, which resulting in a decreased protein content of the blood reduces its osmotic tension and the fluids accumulate in the tissues – we have some pitiful cases – But no supply of meats or fats for them – And sooner or later, they die –
Quiet again –
The Japanese are bringing more war materials into this camp for protection – The front grounds are covered with generators, engines, truck chassis, small field guns, tin plate, rolls of wire for runways – We protested when they started to make a dump in the front – But they told us it was none of our business, that all Manila was a military objective and that our government had not been informed officially that Santo Tomás was being used as an Interment camp –
While we are sure our planes will never bomb this camp, the presence of the war materials is disturbing to say the least –
I find I must remain in bed almost all the time when I am not working or getting meals – I weigh 114 now.